Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Is it Thursday yet?

I had been doing ok with the latest phase of waiting until last night. That's when I really started to freak out and worry about the ultrasound on Thursday. Yesterday I experienced a twinge of nausea in the morning while getting ready for and on the way to work, but other than that I have no symptoms. At least nothing that can't be attributed to the copious amounts of PIO.

I am worried that this is not ok. That there is something not right and it's just the PIO keeping A/F at bay. I know that is silly considering my strongly rising HCG levels but the last reassurance of that was last Monday, so that feeling of confidence is starting to fade.

The last time I had a 6-7 week ultrasound was in July of 2005. That was the one where we determined I had lost the baby. I think maybe that's why I am so scared. I so desperately want, no- NEED- it to be a different outcome this time. I NEED everything to be ok.

Only about 52 hours to go. Ultrasound is at 2:00 p.m. EST on Thursday. Everyone please send your good vibes my way!


Jendeis said...

Crossing all limbs, sending good thoughts.

Alison said...

Sending sending sending the vibes!!!

Anonymous said...

It is going to be OK!! Pray and have positive thoughts! Your babies are counting on you to believe in them too! Good luck and post your good news when you return!

Erin said...

Hoping today was what you needed.